i really dont like it when i get overly sensitive but sometimes i cant help it. its hard not to when the same thing that hurt you in the past is hurting you again. when you actually feel like this time its gonna be different. this person actually shows that he cares. but once he wins your heart thats it. he doesnt know how to treasure it. how can i let myself fall in the same hole twice. and it just hurts more cause its the second time and the one thing i was most afraid of. i always tell myself be careful falling for someone cause i know that once i do i give it my all. but it just seems different for you. maybe i shouldnt have let myself fall so fast so easily. and i dont even think u know why i get so upset. its not the smoking or drinking. its the way you do things. dont tell me stuff that you dont mean. you say you miss me but never come to see me. always have an excuse. when you tell me you’re gonna come see me it gets me excited. i wait for you. but you never fail to disappoint my expectations. and thats what gets me upset. i thought you would be different but maybe i made too quick of a judgement on my part..
you had a bigger effect on me than i ever knew.
why is my heart being so fickle.. you treat me so well that its making me scared cause its the right feeling. its how it should be . but im so used to going through ups & downs that this feeling of perfect feels so strange and new to me. i keep catching myself trying to run to the other side and its driving me crazy. im sorry.
never had someone call me throughout the day just to talk with me :3 it really means alot <3
